"Cold and icy or warm and green. Let it be as it is. Watch with wonder, like the flakes of a snowfall. It will darken the skies, but it will brighten the pavement beneath your feet."
Today I did something different. And I am proud of myself for it. I usually struggle with days like today...the days I have to prepare to do something that I am afraid of. The days that I want to fast forward, so I can hurry up and stare my fear in the face, rather than anticipate it. It is interesting that I compare it to my favorite days. I've realized that when I am about to do something I will really enjoy, I love the anticipation. I love the "getting ready" part of it. The getting ready part is almost just as good (or even better) than the actual thing I'm looking forward to. Maybe because it's a feeling that signals that things are about to get even better. I compare this to days like today...the day before I'm about to do something I am not excited to do (or I am afraid to do). I've realized that I HATE the getting ready part. I avoid it. I want to fast forward to the actual event. I don't want to anticipate the fear anymore...I just want to be there, doing it, and fighting my fear. It is funny how I want time to speed up on days like today, but I want time to slow down when I am anticipating something I am really looking forward to. It shows us how strong our imagination is.
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