weeeeeenas.

Alicia is making caramel apples. Oh yeah. It's almost Thanksgiving. Which means it's almost Christmas. Which means I'm super ecstatic. Every time I try to fill out my grad school applications, I start feeling nauseous. It's like my body's natural defense mechanism. Hey, it's my mom's birthday right now, she just turned 56. Coolio. I like turtles. Part 1 of Breaking Dawn comes out this week. I'm seeing the midnight showing with Joey and Alicia. It's going to be great. I'm drinking bubbly Moscato. It's pretty good. Okay, toodlez.

"Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck."

-Dalai Lama

"Like, I just made green tea, and this is like NOT green..."

-Alicia Chesley

10 minutes later...

"I thought green tea was like..green. Why is this shit brown? Is this green tea or not? I'm googling this shit."

Today.

We are not the same person this year as last; nor are those we love. It is a happy change if we, changing, continue to love a changed person.

If I am not for myself, who will be? And when I am for myself, what am I? And if not now, when?

The 194th day of 2011

It’s hard to look at a setback as a gift. But why when that’s exactly what it is? The struggle itself towards the heights is enough to fill a man’s heart.

He took me to the giant tire swing
Gave me a push and he started singing
I sang along while I was swinging
The sound of our voices made us forget everything
That had ever hurt our feelings

05/08

One of the hardest things to realize, is that our 'someday' is right now.

It’s about taking one thing at a time, & taking nothing for granted, letting go of security and leaping to opportunity, not knowing what comes next, but enjoying the ride, having a dream and watching it gloriously blossom into reality.

Shiny on the inside

Sounds of laughter shades of life
are ringing through my open ears
exciting and inviting me
Limitless undying love which
shines around me like a million suns
It calls me on and on

across the universe

The Acorn

Leona Naess

Madness can't contain me, if you love me chase me

If people were rain, I was drizzle and she was a hurricane.

I need sleep.

Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future, stop figuring out precisely how we feel, stop deciding exactly what we want, and just see what happens.

March 22nd

I believe in yesterday today.

Electric Heart

"Have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don't search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer."
- Rainer Maria Rilke, 1903, in "Letters to a Young Poet"

I need an Enlighten Mint.

There is nothing more genuine than breaking away from the chorus to learn the sound of your own voice.

http://www.fastcompany.com/magazine/66/mylife.html?page=0%2C0

We'll get there fast and then we'll take it slow

Expressive Aphasia: involves difficulty in conveying thoughts through speech or writing. The person knows what he or she wants to say, but cannot find the words.

I can honestly say that lately I have been completely content. This is the happiest I've been in a while. There is nothing else that I need right now. I don't think I would change anything if I could. For the first time in a while, I wouldn't have it any other way.

Jaded

Cause you don’t know much about heaven if you have to hurt to feel.

"She's a sweet girl and she wants me to know her... but I already do. People tell you who they are, but we ignore it. We want them to be who we want them to be."

I am so anxious about graduating. I don't know what I'm going to be doing and that scares me. I don't really want to leave. I've been having so much fun this semester living at the apartment. I'm not sure what will be the best thing for me. Part of me wants to stay, part of me wants to go.

Nostalgia

Nostalgia

Mine is yours

"The world's a playground. You know that when you're a kid, but somewhere along the way everyone forgets it."

I weep for the love I have come to know, the kind that fills you up but doesn't make you whole.

I remember once when I accepted the cliche that "everything happens for a reason", but I just didn't understand why it was so impossible to see those reasons, when that's all you needed. People just blindly accepted that to help them feel better? I guess. I just need to let myself feel what I feel. Hopefully someday I can sigh with relief and think to myself "so that's why". Someday.

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"I saw doves and I thought they were rocks, but they were asleep. My breath made them stir, and the rocks took flight, the earth exploding, and my only thought was that I wanted you to see them, too."

My love is like a blanket

That gets a little bit

too warm sometimes

I wanna wrap somebody in it

Who can hold me

in his arms

Cause when it got

a little too hot in there

He was always stepping out for air

and he froze.

Toomuchenergythesedays.

Dear insomnia,

We went our separate ways a long time ago, and I think it's best we keep it that way. Please do not come back. Thankyousoooomuch.